Tuesday, December 29, 2009

the garhmen.

what have eroded our creativity? gone are the days when it was infinite, together with the purple apple, the monster that is hiding under our bed and the machine that could do practically anything.

i was thinking the day that you appear. you came and taught us to stay, shake hand and fetch. someone else commented these are not going to work anymore. so you threw in the boogey dance. remember the put your right hand in, your right hand out and shake it all about. you were beaming with pride to showcase our newly attained "creativity". well, i hate to break this to you but its all really nothing new. nothing near the wondrous picture of creativity you paint.

return me my creativity. then again, it could have solely been my imagination, that only tiny strand of creativity i am holding on to. what could i have known anyway. my brain could only decipher this much, just a brat right?

its the same old, same old.

i don't get it. ppl are getting impatient waiting in line when all they really do is to stare at the tv screen every single day. contradictory.

Friday, December 25, 2009

it's been a long way

the stupid things we do will be great stories to come.
the memory. the company. the jokes. T.T
great song. nickelback rocks!

Monday, December 21, 2009

i will. am. have.

i have been pondering about who i am.
i can see that i am different.
and i should have known earlier.
being who i truly am
is lonely and disconcerting at times,
for it is a long path in solitary.
i never belong here.
and i don't see the need to be.

but still i don't get it.
why does it always have to be you should, you must and you have to.
instead of i want, i can and i believe.
why can't people just accept me as who i am.
i feel like collapsing through the constant battle
of expanding these rigid societal norms.
don't constrict me. don't attempt to change me.
cause this is never going to be right.

there won't be a he, she, them or you.
its going to be revolving around me.
for it is really about me.
i don't want to be caught in another identity crisis.
a wise man once said
if i be you, then who be me.
so now for who i am, i would be.
then again, who am i?

cold night. cat. wait. return. stay. don't go. please. always.
all i want for x'mas is a maxi dress!!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

2 days of sheer joy

volunteer at CDAC over the weekend. i was lucky to get posted to the haircut section, where i get to play with kids instead of doing saikang like most of the ppl out there (:



nowadays, kids are way different. i know its normal for this changing trend but it still is a bit shocking. the generation gap. must be getting on age. one even confessed that he always scold vulgarities due to influence. not cool ya. sec 1. i would say kids scolding profanities is a norm back in my old days but they don't take that much pride into making it a conversation topic right? so similar to one of my juniors.

one of them is so mature, his speech, the way he asked questions. i wonder how do kids these days grow up?

a hairstylist brought her son over. initially, he was so dormant, not like what a kid should be. i started playing with him and guess what, he transformed into a humanoid-version of tigger. bounces, hops, shrieks, squeals, scuffling of shoes, well, basically the traits of a boisterous kid. even played mini catching around the building till he ran into the rain. no good for the kid to be in the rain though i really love it. i don't want to be responsible for making him ill. oh yea, he really loves to sweep the floor. if only i have that bit in me.

addy, or whatever his name is, the hairstylist cum artist (from monsoon) who keeps appearing on mediacorp show, and his lackey were there too to meet the minister. just to put on a show. their smiles are so "post-it-note" style, those that you could tear off any minute without much hassle.
and there this really cute hairstylist. bonus. ^^ too bad he didn't come for the second day. i was actually looking forward.


i talked to this mischievous boy. he called me a 三八, 八婆. lol. so bad! just because i was harmlessly trying to strike a conversation. though so, he was hilarious. a conversation between him and one of the volunteer.
friend: boy, do you have gf?
boy: choy. (normal reaction) i think you don't have bf also.
friend: why?
boy: cause your hair la. (she highlighted her hair blond) and you so ugly (thats exactly what he says) and you are so young.
and he is with this obedient girl, somebody more reserved. she is really cute. kids, they exude charm seamlessly. she waves to me when i am walking around the event.(haircut service is tucked into a nice corner) it is really a good feeling (:

another hairstylist brought her son over. the one from day 1 isn't here today. he displays a similar character trend as the other one though. quiet initially, playing with his psp. then became playful. kids, there always something in them that wish to play, to have fun. why can't we learn from them? why do we wear a veil or a mask to face this world in an attempt to hide our very own desire (even if its a good one)? whats so hard about having fun right?

he is playing with the paper aeroplane. he flies his aircraft from second floor and it actually lands on somebody head. :D he immediately squat (or run away) so as to stay hidden behind the wall. i was laughing so hard, i hope the lady did not take offense. after which, we went to walk to the mini bazaar, hoping to get some food. (it is really only him) when we reach there, i have to disappoint him by telling him that the food is only for those with the coupons. he doesn't give up, he go straight to the staff and tell the staff he would like to get some food (or something similar). i told the staff that he is actually the hairstylist son and bingo, the staff asked me to get some popcorn through the back. after which, the kid actually went to sheng shiong to get more food. really smart. what more can i say~ throughout the day, we played chopsticks, rhinoceros horn-hand game, pepsi cola, mini wrestling, AEIOU, scissors paper stone cum leg splitting game. besides entertaining the kids, i could proudly claim that i have lighten up the adults there. well, i was just having pure fun but it seems the ppl around are enjoying this whole scene. at the end of the day, the small boy shouted into the loud hailer (personally, i love the loud hailer, one of my instrument for fun too^^) and shocked most of the people (hairstylist and me) around him. i almost jumped out of my seat and a girl who is getting her haircut right in front of me sniggers. lol. to sum it all, everything that happens within the 2 days, it will be, great place. great ppl. great fun.

maybe i am not so important, maybe you did not get my point.
but i won't stop trying, i won't cease having fun.
you can laugh at me for doing stupid things,
i will laugh with you and i hope,
in the end, you will laugh together with me.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

can twilight/new moon get even lamer?

just catch new moon. and it was thumbSSSSS down. i don't even get why so many girls go ga-ga over edward cullen (or maybe robert pattison to be exact), he looks like the chinese opera singer in the show. no offense to the chinese opera singers but it just doesn't work offstage. oh. wait. i think a chinese opera singer looks way better than he does. he just can't pull off the vampire look anymore.
their love story is nothing more than tragedy. i don't see why the story plot make sense. bella is like u leave me, i will die. i going to die for u. go emo. go without friends. do all the reckless (dumbass) thing just to see the illusion of u. edward thinks that its for your own good that i leave you. i want to protect u by leaving u. and if u die when i am away, i will die too. so why not just stay with her instead of this self-sacrificing shit. u think this is very noble. got to make up your mind on whether u want to be with her or leave her.
if edward want to leave her, just leave her for good. so that she can be with jacob. they are so much more better. no emo-ness and they have fun. not forgetting, jacob really hot. not like a piece of sparkling white crap. and bella shut up. you love jacob. why can't you choose, why does the decision maker have to be edward. are you really their pet?
the edwardXbella mini run in the forest in slow motion, looking like they have a very fun time, just look like a cheap imitation of bollywood. oh ya. and they think they can make edward cullen attractive by blowing wind on his face and rolling the film in slow motion. failed attempt. it turns out to be comedy.
cheesy storyline. dying for each other and ended up deciding to live forever with each other. i can't even come out with a worse situation. living with each other FOREVER literally! yea right. they should just die together la. just stop at new moon. why is bella so freaking obsessed with becoming a vampire. cloying love story. puke. u think this is some k drama ar. i didn't pay $10 for this nonsense. why would anybody fall for this plot. its not even consider a fantasy-love story. theres nothing to fantasize about. maybe just the werewolves. they are all so hunky! the only thing else worth watching besides the fighting scene and the comedy (in which u really have to have a low threshold of humour to appreciate it) other than that, its GARBAGE.

i rather read fairy tales a hundred times than to watch another twilight saga. enough is enough

Sunday, December 6, 2009

if you believe i am throwing away my life like that.

(on the international level)
global warming is going to kill you
influenza is going to kill you
terrorism is going to kill you

(on land)
the robber is going to kill you
drink-driving is going to kill you
high-rise litter is going to kill you

(on lifestyle)
alcohol and nicotine are going to kill you
late-night out is going to kill you
even internet addiction is going to kill you

(on me)
and now, my dream is going to kill me.
well, whats new?
now is your move, make a smart guess on what i will die for.

"let us live so that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry." - Mark Twain

Saturday, December 5, 2009

if we are truly who we are

"A ship in port is safe, but that's not what ships are built for." - Grace Murray Hopper

Thursday, December 3, 2009

a sincere dedication or not?

To my dearest yasmeen,

who has impacted me since we first met 7 years ago
(happily stuck with her for 7 years)
who teaches me more of the world than i have managed to understand in the past 19 years
(miss brainiac ^^,)
who puts me way above her needs, her sleep, something that she is so deprived of
(comparing myself to sleep now eh, haiz)
who makes an effort to meet up even if its on a short notice
(yea. thats a cool point!)

for all and all, i have something to tell u,
(hear me, hear me!!)
.our friendship is a hidden treasure unmarked on the map of this harsh world
(bury deep deep)
yet for me, its a beacon that steers me through the choppy sea of life
(but it always stand out. bury again.)
.the time spend together is a gem
(it comes out better under pressure. more pressure, more intricate.)
that never fail to sparkle even in the darkest dark
(ooh, i should get u some bling bling to signify our friendship)
.even if memory does fail, even if the date never stick long enough in my brain
(oops, birthday dates)
i will never forget u as my dependable friend (:

and here, i shall wish u a belated HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ^^,

from your genuine bootlicking friend ^^,

(i am in no way being threatened to write this post for my dearest friend. it is out of my freewill to show my deepest appreciation for this strong friendship.)


"and i find it kinda funny
i find it kinda sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had
i find it hard to tell you
i find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very, very mad world mad world"
-- Mad World, Gary Jules