sometimes, my school can really be "mind-blowing"

no wonder my head feels empty now.
MP log book is freaking lame. why do we have to do a SIP log book and ANOTHER MP log book when both are telling the same story? its such a bore. shouldn't a mp report suffice. gosh. as if anybody really going to read thru everything. all i can say is the school team (whoever made this marvelous decision to do all these logbooks and report) is really dedicated in their job. in a nutcase, i mean nutshell, i praise the school for developing such a wonderfully encompassing and delightful project scheme for us. it really further prepares us for life after graduation. thats finger (ooh. thumb can be consider a finger too right?) up for you.

you weren't born to follow

"we weren't born to follow
come on and get up off your knees
when life is a bitter pill to swallow
you gotta hold on to what you believe

believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
and that your saints and sinners bleed
we weren't born to follow
you gotta stand up for what you believe"
- We weren't born to follow, Bon Jovi
bought olympus FE-4000! but lost the masd-1 on the very first day. crap.

contentment

look at you. a sturdy shelter above your head, a comfy bed, sumptuous meal on the table, new clothes to wear, tv and internet to connect to the rest of the world just at the tip of your finger. yet, you whine, you complain, you are unsatisfied with what you own.

look at the world. if you do not get it yet, those things are considered luxuries, not basic necessities. bet you didn't know that you are one of the richest in this world population. yet you claim that you are poor. people are being deprived of these things you take as granted. you can't see how much you have, you need to learn to count your blessing.

look inside of you. you got to be taught on being contented. don't believe anybody if they say contentment is for underachiever. what do they know about being successful? what do they know about YOUR definition of success? don't let the notion of being rich and holding a high position equates to success get the best of you.

look at this law of achieving, the maslow's hierarchy of needs. you have to be feeling secure with the basic level before proceeding to the next. tell me, how many times do you hear, i will do xxx when i have enough money. exactly what is enough? there will not be enough without contentment. in the end, we will never reach self-actualization cause we are all obsessed with "safety" i.e. financial resources. no step will be taken to achieve our dreams. its going to be difficult to convince ourselves that what we have is sufficient but its possible, for the sake of living a dream.

look at your dream. it just take one belief to break the mould, to believe you have all it takes. u just have to take the first step and not look back. run, sprint towards your dream and embrace whatever that comes along, be it good, be it bad. for that, for all your courage, you will taste success.

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"when you have come to the end of all the light you know and are willing to take one more step - either you will be given solid ground to stand on or you will be taught how to fly."
- Gordon Paul

its all about what you want

we are all vessels of boundless possibilities

"Nature didn't tell me: 'Don't be poor.' Nor indeed: 'Be rich.' But she does beg me: 'Be independent.'"
- Nicholas de Chamfort, Maxims (1795)

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maybe someday, a cloudy day, in the field, with nth but a book, away from the hustle of city life.

thoughts on a lunch box

you make me feel like i am right,
but this time round it doesn't feel so alright to be correct.
i no longer the me back in those days.
well, it shouldn't have any impact at this point
but truth be told, its bothering me, its perplexing.
gosh. you use to have this kind of influence on me.
use to, doesn't seem appropriate here.
i just hope history doesn't repeat ):

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if its you, maybe i stay

its possible to make a difference

"being realistic is the most commonly travel road to mediocrity. "
"don't ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something. you got a dream, you gotta protect it. people can't do something themselves, they want to tell you you can't do it. you want something, go get it, period. "

you are twisted, just like me.

i realize it doesn't affect me that much anymore. no more whimpering. maybe i have grown strong. perhaps i am selfish now. or it could simply be i don't care anymore. no longer wish to be caught in this childish brawl, i am so far away now, you guys have lost me. all these ludicrous exchange of words. i shouldn't be judging you but theres this urge, i guess you know. you display it so well, almost flawlessly.


you teach me to love then show me the hate. i complete now, ain't i?
i still love myself though. i not trashy. i just have a bit too much of you.
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should be working on mp. damn..

i am living behind this wall

the shattering sound of porcelain against the wall. the cracks on the wall that nobody bothers about. please let it stay this way. i plead for you to not stop, to not fill up the cracks. this way, i know you are alive and maybe, i hope, eventually, you will find me, through the cracks, waiting.

if you could just love ... ... again
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"Most people are as happy as they make up their mind to be" - Abraham Lincoln

when the wrong is right.

look at you, broken into a million pieces.
indefinite, impossible to contain,
like the myriad stars of a cloudless night,
each pieces of you, so stunning, so alluring.
just the way you have to be,
the perfect blemish.

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"All animals except man know that the principle business of life is to enjoy it" - Samuel Butler
False Evidence Appearing Real

^^, :D =)

"london bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. london bridge is falling down..."

2 people called me by my secondary school nickname, sth that i have a great collection of but not very proud of =X still, those are wonderful memories (: indication that its time to contact my secondary friends!!

nutrients in a pill. education in an institute.

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing." - Neil Gaiman

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how pathetic. but school is still fun =D

i use to be this puny but now, see how much ive grown, notice how ive changed. to u, i no longer comprehensible. must be hard on u to not be able to read me like a book anymore. too bad for u cause now i learn not to speak. u never listen anyway, not till its too late.

cause its hate. cause its love.

the blue monster escaped its steel cage in the closet to create confusion. confused by the slightest glimpse to the other truth, confused by the fact they see but could not grasp. but is there really a definite truth? isn't the so-called truth only what we perceive, what we believe, what we hold on to? the truth that i live by, the drop of fragility, the reason for inbalance. you fail to see through any of it. of course, i am not suprise. we have our own burden put high above, so high its beyond the reach of others. not that it doesn't matter but once again, i have held this blue monster captive. for the moment.