the string that attach you and me

we run away, over and over. we seldom look back but when we do, we find all those barriers surrounding us. we pause, we stare, yes it still those huge daunting walls, we shake our heads and continue running away. we never make an effort to push down those walls for fear of exposing the person standing right opposite. our fear of those awkward moments, the lack of recognition and those apparent changes. if only we try, we might realise we are still so much in love with the person who we distant ourselves from.

Current Addictions

State of Shock - Heart That Bleeds


Lilo and Stitch Series!!



Elton John - Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word

bye bye sling! hello broken bone~

during check up
doctor: ok. as you can see, your bone has not yet joined back. do you still feel any pain?
me: erm. so you mean it hasn't been healing? no. there is no more pain.
doctor: you can see from the previous x-ray it is not connected but today, you can see a slight connection. however your bone is quite firm.
me: so i have to live with a broken bone??
doctor: you have to come back next month for furthur monitoring. for your case, since the bone is not affecting your movement, i will advise you against the operation. as you know, we will be putting in metal plate and screws to straighten your collar bone. however this operation does not have a 100% success rate. the bone might not join back and over a long period of time, the screws might come loose and the bones might still shift out of place. the only guarantee is that you will have a long scar on your right collar bone and you will be able to feel the metal in your body.
(metal plates and screws. iron man? gulp. if that is the case, will i set off the alarm everytime i go through airport security? and i have to explain i come in peace?!)
me: ok. if that is so, can i start doing exercise? like swimming? and basketball?
doctor: yes, actually i will recommend that. so that you can see if your arm is causing you any inconvenience. please start light.
(at this point, i think the doctor is trying to say, " yes, go ahead. so that you can better decide if you want an operation anot cause i think your bones are not going to join back anymore. well you just have to learn to live with it.")
father: so can she still go for aikido training?
doctor: yes, she can do that. she can't break her collar bone anymore since its already broken.
(horrified~ this could be translated to: there is a very small chance now of her bone joining back since it has already been 1 and a half month and we see only slight improvement to her condition)

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doctor seems to be high or inappropriately cheerful that day.
anyway lets hope miracle do happen.

i miss you, you and you

it has been a week since they left but still, i miss them. how could it be, when we spend only 2 weeks together. 3 years, 3 classes. however each experience is unique and it never fails to amaze me. the rapport we established, the jokes we cracked, the tears we shed, the memories we shared. how nostalgic.

i miss them.

hentai mama and papa - thanks for all the dances and entertainment even though we are suppose to be the hosts

and their kodomo.

ichiban - very decent guy. he is hilarious when he quarrel with hentai mama. nice chap too!
yosuke - always get tricked by us! and those exaggerated response. its cool to know him
atamae bakemono (not sure of the spelling) - minasan prince charming, mr elegant until you see him eat. lol.
chao bai chi - their most active kodomo. hyperactive!! shake head vigorously. m m m m.
alien - too bad i only really talk to him on the first day. he thinks i am scary. haiz.
every year classic bakahiro - thanks so much for bullying me at the train station. i have to take a train ride alone all the way from tanah merah to queenstown just because he doesnt let me in! of cos i get back at him by doing a "disappearing trick" on his bag and not to mention those little stupid things that we do. hitting each other head, shaking coke. what the hell~ ijimeko, ijimedareko!

and my dearest grp 4!!
monkey, chicken little, gucci, papa aka ice kachang, ichiban, sleeping king, and my no buddy- shingaporu-jin. will you remember to come back to your home? a-ne.

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cherish your friends, relish every moment together. even if one day they have to leave physically, they will always be part of you. somehow we are partly who they made us to be. one day we might lose what we have worked so hard for but at least we have gained this much once and we be grateful. so don't be afraid of going after something for the fear of losing it. we never know till we try.
i am happy to know you guys, the people i met, even though i never say it.

the year to come

when it is not enough
when u miss them much
when u want more
when u are left with this one last shot
when u dont even care that it gonna end in the same way

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march - kumamoto!!

when our fate intertwined

memories and pictures
laughters and tears
confusion and emptiness
arrival and departure
them and us
we.

if u want nth more out of life

not the reason why i am always feeling hungry..lol