when the wrong is right.

look at you, broken into a million pieces.
indefinite, impossible to contain,
like the myriad stars of a cloudless night,
each pieces of you, so stunning, so alluring.
just the way you have to be,
the perfect blemish.

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"All animals except man know that the principle business of life is to enjoy it" - Samuel Butler
False Evidence Appearing Real

^^, :D =)

"london bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. london bridge is falling down..."

2 people called me by my secondary school nickname, sth that i have a great collection of but not very proud of =X still, those are wonderful memories (: indication that its time to contact my secondary friends!!

nutrients in a pill. education in an institute.

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing." - Neil Gaiman

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how pathetic. but school is still fun =D

i use to be this puny but now, see how much ive grown, notice how ive changed. to u, i no longer comprehensible. must be hard on u to not be able to read me like a book anymore. too bad for u cause now i learn not to speak. u never listen anyway, not till its too late.

cause its hate. cause its love.

the blue monster escaped its steel cage in the closet to create confusion. confused by the slightest glimpse to the other truth, confused by the fact they see but could not grasp. but is there really a definite truth? isn't the so-called truth only what we perceive, what we believe, what we hold on to? the truth that i live by, the drop of fragility, the reason for inbalance. you fail to see through any of it. of course, i am not suprise. we have our own burden put high above, so high its beyond the reach of others. not that it doesn't matter but once again, i have held this blue monster captive. for the moment.

hide no more

today, they talked about university admission. i guess its everybody top priority now to secure a place in their desirable university. well, almost everybody. my graduation plans? i don't know. i lied. there are lots of negative feedback and disparaging comments already. enough is enough.

it doesn't really matter what they think of me anymore. it doesn't matter now, not even what you think of me. these few years, i have been hiding, hiding from all things that i should have taken responsibility. for the sake of you, i try to put everything behind. when i can't, i run away and hide, never to confront the problem.

i know you hated the things that i loved and did since i was a kid. we are different in every ways, don't you see? i can't get you luxurious car or fanciful home, at least thats what i foresee. the american dream is your ideal lifestyle, its not mine. i couldn't carry it with me anymore. i wish to do the things that i genuinely want. rest assured that i know what i am doing. i am not a kiddo anymore, no longer the child who has to be hushed everytime she fell.

if i do fall now, i will stand on my feet and continue onwards. i wish i have known these earlier. its a waste that you have never taught me this. all i remember is you reprimanding me to not do the "stupid" stuffs again. have i not been who i am today, i could have been a hermit or a coward, for thats who you have taught me to be.

though so, i still love you, love you not for what you do but for who you are. believe me, i really do.

in a swimsuit

venue: downtown east chalet

time: 1900

date: 22 Oct 09

mission: find a way into the room for the hot bath.

dangers to avoid:
- involuntary shivering
- trembling lips
- numb fingers
- freezing of facial features
- acute hunger

equipment:
- goggles (eye)
- swimsuit (body)
- slippers (feet)
- stitch towel cum sarong (accessory 1)

hint:
- stay calm
- call operator for extra keys using dedicated phone in chalet
- if fail or steps given by operator are impractical, lend a phone from stranger
- using the phone, call the person you know as key holder for help
- if all else fail and/or you encounter the dangers as mentioned above, PANIC!! SCREAM!! switch to HYSTERICAL mode!!

lesson learnt: never never never ever go swimming without clothes, towel, soap and shampoo. at least u can change to normal clothes and not suffer from the freezing weather and sticking out like a sore thumb. best is to bring handphone or the key along!!

secret to staying young

"Men do not quit playing because they grow old; they grow old because they quit playing." - Oliver Wendell Holmes
LOVE this quote. we should always keep playing and stay young. abandon the notion of playing is non-instrumental to successs. being happy is the most successful thing to get from life. so lets bring out all the lollipops and stick our HAPPY asses to the chair in front of the computer and watch lilo and stitch!! whoo~