a sincere dedication or not?

To my dearest yasmeen,

who has impacted me since we first met 7 years ago
(happily stuck with her for 7 years)
who teaches me more of the world than i have managed to understand in the past 19 years
(miss brainiac ^^,)
who puts me way above her needs, her sleep, something that she is so deprived of
(comparing myself to sleep now eh, haiz)
who makes an effort to meet up even if its on a short notice
(yea. thats a cool point!)

for all and all, i have something to tell u,
(hear me, hear me!!)
.our friendship is a hidden treasure unmarked on the map of this harsh world
(bury deep deep)
yet for me, its a beacon that steers me through the choppy sea of life
(but it always stand out. bury again.)
.the time spend together is a gem
(it comes out better under pressure. more pressure, more intricate.)
that never fail to sparkle even in the darkest dark
(ooh, i should get u some bling bling to signify our friendship)
.even if memory does fail, even if the date never stick long enough in my brain
(oops, birthday dates)
i will never forget u as my dependable friend (:

and here, i shall wish u a belated HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ^^,

from your genuine bootlicking friend ^^,

(i am in no way being threatened to write this post for my dearest friend. it is out of my freewill to show my deepest appreciation for this strong friendship.)


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"and i find it kinda funny
i find it kinda sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had
i find it hard to tell you
i find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very, very mad world mad world"
-- Mad World, Gary Jules

sometimes, my school can really be "mind-blowing"

no wonder my head feels empty now.
MP log book is freaking lame. why do we have to do a SIP log book and ANOTHER MP log book when both are telling the same story? its such a bore. shouldn't a mp report suffice. gosh. as if anybody really going to read thru everything. all i can say is the school team (whoever made this marvelous decision to do all these logbooks and report) is really dedicated in their job. in a nutcase, i mean nutshell, i praise the school for developing such a wonderfully encompassing and delightful project scheme for us. it really further prepares us for life after graduation. thats finger (ooh. thumb can be consider a finger too right?) up for you.

you weren't born to follow

"we weren't born to follow
come on and get up off your knees
when life is a bitter pill to swallow
you gotta hold on to what you believe

believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
and that your saints and sinners bleed
we weren't born to follow
you gotta stand up for what you believe"
- We weren't born to follow, Bon Jovi
bought olympus FE-4000! but lost the masd-1 on the very first day. crap.

contentment

look at you. a sturdy shelter above your head, a comfy bed, sumptuous meal on the table, new clothes to wear, tv and internet to connect to the rest of the world just at the tip of your finger. yet, you whine, you complain, you are unsatisfied with what you own.

look at the world. if you do not get it yet, those things are considered luxuries, not basic necessities. bet you didn't know that you are one of the richest in this world population. yet you claim that you are poor. people are being deprived of these things you take as granted. you can't see how much you have, you need to learn to count your blessing.

look inside of you. you got to be taught on being contented. don't believe anybody if they say contentment is for underachiever. what do they know about being successful? what do they know about YOUR definition of success? don't let the notion of being rich and holding a high position equates to success get the best of you.

look at this law of achieving, the maslow's hierarchy of needs. you have to be feeling secure with the basic level before proceeding to the next. tell me, how many times do you hear, i will do xxx when i have enough money. exactly what is enough? there will not be enough without contentment. in the end, we will never reach self-actualization cause we are all obsessed with "safety" i.e. financial resources. no step will be taken to achieve our dreams. its going to be difficult to convince ourselves that what we have is sufficient but its possible, for the sake of living a dream.

look at your dream. it just take one belief to break the mould, to believe you have all it takes. u just have to take the first step and not look back. run, sprint towards your dream and embrace whatever that comes along, be it good, be it bad. for that, for all your courage, you will taste success.

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"when you have come to the end of all the light you know and are willing to take one more step - either you will be given solid ground to stand on or you will be taught how to fly."
- Gordon Paul

its all about what you want

we are all vessels of boundless possibilities

"Nature didn't tell me: 'Don't be poor.' Nor indeed: 'Be rich.' But she does beg me: 'Be independent.'"
- Nicholas de Chamfort, Maxims (1795)

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maybe someday, a cloudy day, in the field, with nth but a book, away from the hustle of city life.

thoughts on a lunch box

you make me feel like i am right,
but this time round it doesn't feel so alright to be correct.
i no longer the me back in those days.
well, it shouldn't have any impact at this point
but truth be told, its bothering me, its perplexing.
gosh. you use to have this kind of influence on me.
use to, doesn't seem appropriate here.
i just hope history doesn't repeat ):

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if its you, maybe i stay